Becoming too attached to my computer

Bought a new modem because I wanted a faster speed

It’s not fast. What happened?

Every time I work more than 10 minutes the colored circle on my Mac begins to turn pink, green, blue. Circling around like a little rainbow.

Contact Cox

Activate the chat box in the corner

Guy does some remote magic

He tells me that I need to clean out my Mac.

Turns me over to some other guy

He wants permission to take over my computer

I say yes. I just want the stupid thing to work.

Running a package called Mac Keeper

Takes about 10–15 minutes

Can’t do any checking of email, news, Facebook, or pretend to write an article.

I always want to write when the computer is not functioning.

Am I too attached to my computer?

It can do so many things in such a short period of time.

Research libraries, read other blogs, check out writing retreats, reserve hotels, and find restaurants, buy airline tickets.

Am I too attached to my computer?

It makes me angry, frustrated, and disconnected when it doesn’t work.

Where else do I get information?

I am now writing by hand waiting for my computer to run “package scripts”.

Computers have us trapped.

We can’t live without them.

They have us trained. When did this happen?

I stare at my computer waiting for something magical to happen.

“Install time remaining: about a minute”

Can I speed it up?

No, it has control over me.

I sit here waiting and waiting.

I use the computer for everything, recipes, research, connecting with other writers, reading articles.

The screen goes gray. The blue line stops moving.

Everything is at a standstill.

Do I go exercise, scream, touch my toes or start all over?

Nothing moves now.

I start clicking everywhere.

The annoying rainbow circle begins to spin around again.

Turn off the computer. Start over the voice in my head whispers and is now yelling at me.

I do what the voice tells me.

The “chat “is over.

Where did that guy go?

He didn’t help. The rainbow circle continues to move.

How do I get that guy back?

He sends me a survey asking me if I was satisfied.

No, I am not satisfied.

I start again. Back to page 1. How do I get that Mac Keeper robot icon to come back?

I found it. Now scanning.

I wait patiently

Mac Keeper is downloaded. Waiting for someone to pop up on a chat to help me activate it.

I wish I would have studied computer science instead of becoming an ESL teacher. Not really.

I am waiting for the tech to get back on line.

He says he will return in a minute.

He is busy helping others like me who think computers should just do their thing without all of the problems.

My computer is now protected from computer fraud.

Frank, the tech, found 295 sleeping processes. That is why it is was so slow. They were sleeping.

Frank got rid of them. Thanks Frank.

Frank just charged me $119 dollars for a 3-month warranty.

OK, so Frank is not finished.

He must get rid of all those programs that are sleeping.

Frank needs to take over my computer.

I am trapped. If I say know, he won’t fix my computer. I say yes.

Do I know Frank? Is he honest? I don’t know. I wish I could see him. I could tell if he is honest by looking into his eyes. He is hiding behind my computer.

Frank has passed me on to another tech. Frank needs to eat lunch.

The next tech will have access to my computer for the next 2–3 hours. I am going shopping.

My computer now flashes before me.

Bringing up files I don’t understand.

The remote arrow moves around operating on my files.

I no longer have control.

Is my computer being hijacked?

I return home. Turn on my computer. Yeah, my computer is fast. No more circling rainbows.

I change my password immediately.

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I am a retired ESL instructor. I am on a journey which includes writing, blogging, taking photos, and getting to know other cultures.

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